How Zoe's Doing...

Zoe is still in the ICU today, and we're still waiting and seeing if more surgery will be needed. Her blood tests came back showing that nutritionally she is very depleted. Her blood vessels are leaking fluid all over into her body so she is very puffy, and right now she is getting a blood transfusion to try to help replace protein, iron, and other nutrients into her blood. She has a fever, elevated heart rate, and is still very lethargic. Her body is processing her feedings, so that is a good sign. The neurosurgeons are going to take her dressing off later, and check out her wound and drain.

Luckily I think we've figured out our hotel situation with DHS which is a huge relief. Living in the hospital is the fast lane to going insane, and that's the last thing Zoe needs for us to be heading for. Henry and I take turns doing the night shift at the hospital, so that at least every other day we're getting decent sleep, and a bit of an evening break to have some alone time.

Today I'm feeling a little all over the board. Zoe's belly is distended again, and her blood counts are fluctuating up and down every day. She has so much going on. I'm struggling with not knowing definitively which direction she is going in. Is she getting better or is she getting worse? We don't know yet. All the meds that she's on are "let's see how she does on them" meds. As far as the way she looks...not as good as yesterday in my opinion. I'm trying to relax, and trust that the docs have her on the right path, and to just pray, and trust that her body will find the strength it needs to fight these infections. She is very strong in spirit if not in body, and I really have to dig deep now to keep my spirit strong for her.

Colleen